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The Power we give… I have had relationships before and many of them have really tested my resolve. I think most relationships begin similarly with this amazing attraction you swear you have never felt this strongly before, this superhuman feeling that you have finally found the right one, the love of your life and sometimes that is true. This relationship can be the one that lasts a lifetime I’ve seen it. Trust however that there will be trials. That you will have to pick your battles to fight and some will test your faith and most of all your resolve to even stay in it because sometimes you’re not just fighting circumstances you are fighting all of the trauma or issues of the person you’re with and people can sometimes make themselves quite difficult to love. Sometimes purposely hoping you will give up and give them the freedom to continue not having to face their issues. Maybe they’re comfortable with them. We all have a level of comfortability we are not willing to part with. I am comfortable in my ways but I am always willing to learn and accommodate for the sake of making my partner happy, sometimes too much and that is where sometimes for me the trouble begins. I am a giver. I give so much in a relationship that sometimes it leaves me feeling empty. I couldn’t clearly explain what about me makes me feel I need to be this way but I am. I tend to fall in love with my whole being. My heart, mind, body and soul all become fully invested in the relationship to the point where I loose myself and suffer on behalf of every little thing done to me. I take it all extremely personal and my wounds become infected with the poison of need and regret easily. Especially when I feel rejected by the person I love. In turn instead of retreating like some people will do I give more all in hopes that they will see me and what I’m worth. Not that I don’t know what I’m worth because I do but we all know the heart has a mind of its own. Still with enough ill treatment I give up and release the person fully because my release is as pungent as my love. When I release someone I release them completely. Delete everything I have ever done with them along with all the love I might have felt. Of course love is harder to release but once I have decided to release someone there is no going back. There is no friendship or future conversations to be had. There is just a clean slate and a new beginning for myself alone without the temptation of calling when I feel down or the need to back peddle because unlike others I never forget the persons faults or what they did to cause me pain. I become clear and enlightened in every respect and act accordingly. That is the only way I have learned to save myself thus far. I give, yes but that in no way implies that one would have any ability or leave to take advantage of me. What I give I give freely and with love in my heart but abuse is not tolerated. I have been known to give away too much power away over myself in love but I can always take that power back. Usually it’s at great cost to myself but I do get it back. I cry it out and I suffer for my foolishness because I have refused to believe someone even when they have shown me who they are but when someone becomes an ache and sadness that settles in your heart, when the sorrow is larger than the joy you have to make a choice to continue or save yourself. Many times we continue to fool ourselves, and when we receive a bone from the other person that makes us feel in the least bit wanted, we accept it greedily hoarding it as a child would their favorite toy. Letting it keep the fire of hope alive wanting it to light the fire of another heart which we really have no control over. Love is hard. As hard as it can be rewarding when its real and genuine. We go on this way too much, too often but its part of what makes us human. No one ever said love would be easy especially when it’s expected to endure. You would think in my 48 years I would have it figured out. Impossible but I treck on because though I have suffered and sometimes severely, I believe in people. I believe in love. I believe in being myself and giving.There’s something genuine about that, something pure and I love that about me.

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Versatile Blogger Award Nomination

I was nominated for the Versatile Blogger Award.  I am truly honored. Wow! Thank you Karen P.  author of http://yoursuperstarresume.com I really appreciate your nominating my blog. I work hard on it and hope to make it better as I go along.

 

Here are seven things about me:

1. I’m a mom of three and step mom to four kids.

2. I love plantains and sausage

3. I was born in the Dominican Republic

4. I love art journaling.

5. I try to write every day.

6. Stephen King is my favorite author.

7. I have over 2000 books.

 

Here are the blogs I’ve nominated: ( this is really hard!)

1. diane-owens.com

2. gigoid.me

3. deanjbaker.wordpress.com

4. livinglifewithraandfms.wordpress.com

5. ordinarylisa.wordpress.com

6. ladyromp.com

7. trudon22.wordpress.com

8. sadieanddasie.wordpress.com

9. patcegan.wordpress.com

10. artprofilesworld.wordpress.com

11. sweepyjean.wordpress.com

12. meirozavian.wordpress.com

13. girlsheartbooks.com

14. lindsaythomas20.wordpress.com

15. kmcgeepoet.wordpress.com

I am really thankful to be nominated, maybe this means I’m on the right track. THANK YOU!!

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A look at….How to get more comments

 

I just read How to get more comments. I have to say it was very helpful and i got quite a few ideas from it. Blogging on wordpress has been the best experience I’ve had thus far on a blogging site. Some other sites have proven quite difficult for me because let’s face it some people just had no interest unless it was their work you were reading. It took me about 2 years on blogger to reach anyone. I don’t know if it has something  to do with the site but my experience has not been a good or friendly one. I know there is no getting without giving so I read and comment as often as I can on my readers blogs. Every writer wants to know they’re reaching someone and what they think. I truly appreciate anyone who takes the time to share their ideas with me and I do the same for them. So here and now I’d like to take the time to say thank you to all of you. I am forever grateful.